Beyond razor-wired walls
the moon shimmers in the late summer sky
spills over in pale brightness
to draw me into its fullness
washing my eyes in quicksilver
Now, in a heavy-lidded cell
moon-bereft nights leave me weeping
tears well up in dry cratered wounds
despair rises
dark and irradiated
to swallow starlight
and spit it out
like steel needles
that incite my loneliness
My soul careens off cell walls
wails till pain tires
and the pale moon of memory
appears to call me home
Presente:
Remembering Marilyn Buck (1947-2010)
"A sadness too deep for words"
These are words I write down,
on the back of my program,
to describe the sadness I am feeling
a bit more than half-way
through the evening.
"In a heavy-lidded cell
moon-bereft nights leave me weeping."
These are words Marilyn writes down,
in her poem, to describe the sadness
she is feeling one dark-of-July in 1990.
How many have had to explain
the ways in which a choice
to fight for justice leaves us weeping?
Yet those who live and love as
Marilyn Buck lived and loved know
there is a purgatory even worse
than this: that waterfall
of tears shed by all those
who choose not to fight.
"They call me an enemy of the state
so I know I must be doing something right"
A choice, made once and
never questioned—not even
in the darkest of times.
If Giuseppe Verdi were alive,
I think to myself, he might
write an opera worthy of this
libretto. For hours passed
listening to one of his
constitutes the sole experience
I can think of comparable
to what is happening to me
now, here, this evening.
Still, let us remind ourselves,
only Marilyn Buck could
have written the life
which she has left to us.
After her release, those closely
connected describe a woman intent
on devouring everything
in the final few weeks of life
which she has left to her.
And so we comprehend: thirty years
behind prison bars could not devour
this living spirit. Chalk-up one more victory
for a living spirit over that which some
still have the arrogance to call "freedom."
She who believed in freedom
let her rest.
"They call me an enemy of the state
so I know I must be doing something right"
And we know it too:
an entire ballroom-full
of people who, during
two and one-half hours
of tribute by her friends,
by her comrades, by her
family, reconfirm
the ways in which each
and every human
being becomes family
in the presence
of a living spirit.
Marilyn Buck—presente!
Marilyn Buck—presente!
Marilyn Buck—
siempre presente!
Steve Bloom
November, 2010